| It's a short entry. And a sad, bad news entry. Her numbers ended up getting as low as 21. Then they started to creep back up about a week ago. Yesterday she let me know that they had reached 100. End of the line. No more treatment options remain. I can hardly bring myself to say it but it's just a waiting game now. I just came from talking to her and she wants so disparately to just stay at school and finish the semester. There are just 3 weeks left. Her parents are driving up from New York right now and there are meetings with doctors planned for later tonight. The doctors tell her she must leave school. I cannot understand this at all. What jurisdiction do they even have at this point? They can say things like "it would probably be better for you if you left school". But they can't say "you must go". She's a grown woman. Far as I can tell she can go where ever she damn well pleases. And if there is any instance in which an individual should have the absolute say over where to go and when this is it. I can only imagine that they think her staying might accelerate the progression of the cancer against her body. But that is inevitable at this point and it sure seems that 3 weeks doing what you really want to be doing is 3 weeks well spent in the last days of your life. The only other thing I can figure is that they expect the progression to be fast and that she should be home with caregivers and that even they said, sure stay, that in a week she would be leaving anyway. But, then again, at this moment she looks and feels fine. If she only has a week before she feels really sick then she goes home in a week. What is the issue here? I just want her to stay. Because she wants to stay. Because she wants it more than anything else right now. And that feels like reason enough to give it a shot at least for now. She tells me her parents feel the same way. I'm home early for the first time in eons. L is waking up from her nap. I'm going to go wallow in her wondefulness for a while. |
